I ONLY HAVE ONE JOB.

                I KNOW I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO FEEL USELESS, WORTHLESS, AND TRASH, right?  Admit it - everyone have experienced this feeling. Where you feel that you are not worth anything at all, that you feel useless in all ways, that everything you do just seems not to fit in this world, that you're a trash. Well, if you haven't...you are lucky. And if you have, welcome to our life. 

That's it! We happened to encounter this feeling because that's simply how life works.

*SHORT STORY*

My family is neither rich nor poor instead we are blessed. We eat three times a day (sometimes four, five, six, and the list go on). We have an internet connection, constant electricity and good source of water may it be for drinking or for bath. We are indeed the - commoners. And lately, I've been spending a lot of money that is used for my own good. This is where I feel frustrated about myself, it feels like sh*t.

I want to go to Harry Style's Concert here in our country. (Tickets range from 2-7 thousand pesos)

I need a long gown/dress for the debut. (required attire that would cost 1000+ pesos)

I want to have my underarm treated so that it'll be fine. (My underarm is not too dark but it is not cute, so to make the appearance somehow likeable it'll cost 2000 pesos)

*So here is the point*

I want to buy my elementary best friend a nice gift for her debut. ( Apparently the perfect gift she'll loved to receive ranges from 800 pesos to 1000+ pesos.)

(On the debut day, I also need a make up artist or go to salon that'll cost about 300+)

AND lastly, 

I think my dog needs to undergo surgery. I am not a Veterinarian but seeing her situation everyday, the way she cries at night and sometime at random times of the day - I know it is all because of the pain that she is experiencing, that I cannot feel becaue obviously, I'm not a dog and I don't speak dog. *bark bark* (we all know that a surgery for a human is expensive, how much more for a dog?)

Summing this up will cost A LOT. Though I know my sister, my brother and with the little help of my mother - this financial problem is not a problem at all. The real problem is ME.

Most of the things listed above are things that I need. Things that I want and things that would satisfy my dear self. But none of those expenses are meant for other people, except for the case of my dog. And if I need to sacrifice my concert ticket for the wellness of my dog, I'll do it. I'll be crying for a month or three but if I lost my dog, I'll probably cry for the rest of my life. (just kidding, i'll be crying for a year or two if I'll miss Harry Style's concert, but I am willing to take the risk).

I do believe that my siblings are willing to pay for my dog's *surgery? or just a check up from her veterinary. And there is nothing wrong about that. I am happy about it. What makes me sad is that if I can only earn money like them, then I'll be able to afford things that I want even without sacrificing for the things that I need. I'll be able to buy my friend a nice gift, buy the dress that I want, use every single penny to make my skin and my underarm perfect, I will be able to go to any concert that I want, not looking at the prices and directly buying the VIP tix that I've always dreamed of. THIS IS WHERE I FEEL LIKE A TRASH, I'M USELESS, I'M WORTHLESS.

If only I can earn money, if only I have a job, if only I can do things that they can do. I can't believe I'm putting myself down because of my inability to produce my own money, because I cannot do anything for my family. But this is life, welcome to my life.

*MY ONLY JOB* 

I may not have a job right now that could buy everything. but I do believe I have the job that is easy yet very important. The only job that I should do in order for me to give everything back to my family is to STUDY HARD.

 "That is the least that I can do. All of them are working to give me a better future and I should also work hard and focus on my study to show them that all of their hard work in their own jobs are worth it. That their sweat and tears are in good hands."

*message to all of the people who feel useless...*

              To all the people who feel like they have no purpose in life, that everything is nonsense, well snap the hell out of yourself. Please come to your senses! Don't overthink and do not focus on the things that do not matter. If you think too much of the things that may happen in the future, then you'll be blind to see the things that matter in the present. "Always focus on YOUR JOB TODAY and that will lead you to a BETTER JOB SOMEDAY." You may feel useless as of the moment but don't let it bring you down, make it as your stepping to stone to reach further your goals and towards a fruitful tomorrow.

-SnFF

A-Ba-Ka-Da ng Pinas! (Alphabet of the Philippines)

Hello Folks!


One of our task as a Senior High School student is to present a speech. Apparently, the topic that was given by the teacher is "Philippines". She told me a follow up question: How will you convince the people to go and visit our country?

So I've decided to use the Philippine Alphabet - our very own 'A Ba Ka Da'

A- Antique Places in our country that shows how deep our history is.

Ba-Back in 2007 our very own Puerto Princesa Subterranean River National Park was included in the new 7 wonders of nature

Ka- Kind people, heartwarming and very hospitable Filipinos that will capture your attention.

Da- The best foods like Adobo, Sinigang, Bulalo, all are equally tasty and healthy.

E- egg plants, strawberries, indian mangoes , jack fruit, durian and other fruits and vegetables that will satisfy your tummy.

Ga- God gave us so many natural resources that can be good for business chances.

Ha- Ham, hamburger , fries and other street foods that captures our culture.

I-Isaw, Chicken Skin, Fishballs, Kickiams and other cheap food you’ll surely love.

La- Landscapes  like Chocolate hills ,Mount Apo and Rice Terraces

Ma- Man made furnitures from our high quality woods like Narra

Na- Navigation and travelling is so easy and really affordable

Nga-Nganga-or Betel Nut chewing one of Philippine medicinal plants found in the places of Cordillera.

O- On the other hand, medicine is really good in the our country.

Pa-Pageant of Ms.Universe 2017 held here in the Philippines

Ra- Rambutan festivals, Ati-atihan, Panagbenga Festivals and other festivals that are really enjoyable are done yearly in our place.

Sa- Sands of Boracay, Windmills in Ilocos and other travel worthy places to visit in the country.

Ta- Tarsiers, Whale sharks or Butanding, Philippine Eagle are some of the many exotic animals in the Phillippines.

U- Ube, Suman, Bico, Kalamay and other desserts that is not just sweet but would fill yout stomach.

Wa- What else are you looking for? We have everything in the Philippines, we eveb have the cheapest beers you can enjoy. It is indeen, more fun in the Philippines

Ya- Yah, I’m *name here* and that would be all.

I hope you learned something about the Philippines I hope that would encourage you to visit us here in our country.

What I learned from Not using Facebook.

As we  welcome 2017 I've decided to deactivate my Facebook account, deleted the app on my cellphone and avoided it when I'm using the laptop. I just want this year to be more productive than last year and one of my solution is to stop the excessive use of social media.

Just the second day of my Less-Facebook Challenge, I have learned a lot already. 

First, I don't use Facebook to kill time when I'm bored instead I use Facebook always and it kills my time even though I am not bored and have a lot of stuffs to do. 

Second, I realize how I depend my happiness on Facebook. My last post only got 10 likes and 1 comment (which happens to be my supportive sister) unlike my other post that reaches 100+ likes and 20+ comment. And guess what? I became so sad simply because I don't get the number of comments and likes that I expected to. See? I depend my level of happiness to the level of what they call 'fame' on Facebook. 

Lastly, what I learned from not using Facebook is that... It doesn't help me at all. I waste my time, I get so depressed over simple things, and not to mention the 'toxic' people and 'fake' Internet friends I have on that cite. 

I'm going to give an example about this. Recently, I went to the barbershop 💈 and had an hair cut 💇.

#TheFirstStageOfMovingOn

Just kiddin'

Anyway, to continue... I'm getting my hair cut when suddenly I heard something break, I thought it was just my heart screaming from the inside but then I realized it was my slippers. 

As we all know,  slippers is used by pair... Once the other one is lost or broken, the one left is not useful anymore. Just like me, when I was lost and broken while he remained fix. Lol. 

Right after that, one thing suddenly came out of my mind : HOW WILL I GO HOME? 

I have 4 possible choices- a.)I will walk home barefooted (which is shameful) 

b.) I'll ask the barber if they sell slippers (which is obviously a big...NO)

c.) I'll borrow the the cellphone of the costumer next to me cause I left my phone at home (but I decided not to because she looks like my gradeschool terror teacher) 

d.) or should I shout and scream the name of my Super Mom so she can fly from our house to here real quick and save me.. bring me a new slipper and fly me back to our house.

I'm going insane and I'm so desperate, I was about to open my Facebook, post it as a status or share it in my stories in messenger, but I chose not to. Because how will my friends help me? They'll just know how unlucky I am and might even make a laugh out of me. And I think I did the right thing. I choose not to find a solution the social 'media' way but through socializing..  

I saw the grandmother of my neighbor just infront of the salon, she is working in the small clinic infront and is in charge in as a cashier... I walk barefooted just 5 steps in front of the salon and asked politely if I can borrow her slipper and promises to return it as soon as possible.  Thank God, I was able to go home safely with my feet neatly. 

Thanks to Grandma and her extra-slippers in the bag! 

This is her 'extra slipers' and even though it's a fake havainas, has a whole in the middle, I was still able to go home as shameless as possible. Hehe, thanks Granny! 

See? If I posted it on Facebook, what would happen? Nothing. Just me, getting few likes and me getting depressed and me walking home barefooted like a pig out of their pen.

If I can thank people for liking my profile picture, I can also thank Grandma for helping me back there.  

This maybe simple but I know this will also mean a lot to her. I gave her back the slippers I borrowed together with a 1. Monde Special Mamon 2. Skyflakes 3.Presto Cream Peanut Butter 4.Strawberry Wafer and 5. Hand written letters :) 

This 2017 will surely be full of lesson I'll get from my own experience and not from news and status updates of other people. 

Happy New Year Everyone 🎉

-SnFF 

UPDATE! 

Just like in social media, I recently received my reply and of course... I received it personally. 

Remember the hand written letter I gave Granny? Well she liked it so much. The day after I gave her the simple gift (shown above) she went to out house crying. Yes, she is crying because of Joy. She told me that I am the first one to gave her a letter (which made me so sad thinking that she is old already and must have experience this kind of appreciation). She also said that her children never greeted her a 'Happy New Year' for this 2017. They never thank her enough that made her feel sad because I, as her simple neighbor, thanked her so much for letting me borrow her slippers. But her children whom she gave everything she can, doesn't show any appreciation for her. 

In the letter, she wrote 'anak na rin kita' (You are also my child) because I remember that she became my nanny when I was just a baby until I am 2 years old (I think?) no wonder why I am comfortable and felt the closeness we have once shared. 

What actually persuaded me to update this is her message saying 'Sana Ikaw na lang ang anak ko' (I wish I have a daughter like you). It struck my heart and feel the pain she is burden with. I wasn't able to say anything besides 'Thank You po And God bless'  and she walked away from our house and walks toward their house. I wanted to gave her a tight hug but I am really blank at the moment and wasn't able to do so. But right after she went away, I locked myself in the room and cried for 10 minutes. I am not sure why but it is probably because of the mix emotion I felt during the whole conversation with her. 

Imagine if I posted a 'Thank You Grandma for letter me borrow your slippers #Blessed #Thankful'  on Facebook, I may get likes, comments and other feedbacks. But you know? Nothing compares to the feeling of receiving a 'Thank You' from a sincere heart personally.  As they say, the best things are free and those free things can actually make you more happy than expensive stuffs. 

Just like Grandma, I only gave her cheap biscuits and a simple letter but it mean a lot to her. She let me borrow her slipper and she make me happy just by the reply that I get. 

This 2017, I may not be too active on Facebook, people may not know the things that I have experienced today but I have learned a lot of things already just a few days since I started to not use my Facebook. 

2017 will truly be a different year for me. 

-SnFF

PIANO REMIX and COVER

Piano Cover and Remix of the following songs:

Irresistible by One Direction

I hate you, I love you - Gnash

We don't talk anymore - Charlie Puth

Stitches - Shawn Mendes 

Amnesia - 5SOS

NO HUGOT INTENDED :) HEHEHE. Just a simple cover cuz' I'm bored!
Comment for suggestions!

Manny Vs. 'Money' - Dirty Tricks and All (My POV)

Manny Pacman Vs. Floyd 'Money' Mayweather.

     The most awaited "Fight of the Century" was held on May 2,2015 at the MGM. Many were not satisfied with the result. May weather won the fight, and the whole world was shocked especially the Filipinos, who were very sad about the result. And here is my Point Of View about the said fight.


     In every fight of our pride "Manny", We Filipinos always support him by simply watching and praying with all our might. And most especially this fight, the biggest ever!

   
     And what I have noticed after watching the news and by my own observation, Filipinos are the most affected citizens of this fight. We mourn and honestly we became very sad. Well most of us are not satisfied with the result, and yes! so do I. Well Filos are known for their characteristic of having the best smile and always happy no matter what the situation is, even in storm, war and under a corrupt government, we do smile :)
So some of us even made a memes of the said fight.

 Here are some:











   



But for me, I can't just laugh about it cause I really feel so sad about it and I have to say my side even just to this simple blog.


     Let's start from the very beginning. Since the fight of the Century was announced, everybody is waiting for it not knowing the contract and every condition Mayweather wants in order for him to approved. It all happened when they accidentally met at a NBA. There the talking about the boxing continues.

     I don't know if all of the things I'm about to say us true but this is what I've been hearing throughout the month before the fight. That the share with regard to 'money' will be 40/60 giving "Manny" the less shares. And that if Mayweather wins there will be NO REMATCH but if Manny wins, there should be. Like, wtf? So unfair. Maybe Pacquiao approved that kind of contract in order to fight him even though he us the one below even though the game isn't staring yet. Another thing is that the audience will be more on Mayweather's side because he got more of the tickets, but the funny thing is that on the game, He is the one being 'boo-ed' by the audience, right? given that the place is his place. What else did I miss? I don't know any further information but if you do, just comment below.